its been a while.

Yo!

i'm back.


i have been busy and therefore neglected my food log once again.

but my doctor told me I need to be exercising 6xa week. (Right now it's about 3-4 times)...to help with my ADD stuff before I get a final diagnosis.

ciao for now.

ugg!

I neglected my diary this weekend-probably cuz I was doing bad. I did go for a run and bike ride yesturday-but I weighed myseld tonight-153 lbs!!! OMG!!

It is sooo frustrating.

I want to lose weight. I need to keep track of what I'm putting in my body-and how I'm working it off. I NEED to lose weight. I need to limit what and how much I eat. I need to be mindful about what I'm eating. I love myself and care enough about myself to do this. I can exercise everyday-it will help me feeling healthy and in the long run help me feel less sluggish and tired.

I'm getting the nano this weekend-so hopefully that'll be a big boost of inspiration. I want to look thinner-its just the road getting there is not as simple as I think it'll be. But I can do it. I know it. There are sooo many things I have done, I can do this. I've been thinking about joining weight watchers or something...but I really don't have the money. I just need some encouragement...

love,
Arwen

p.s. I've also decided to STOP eating dairy products for three weeks-to see if I feel better physically and break out less. SO I have to remind myself: NO DAIRY!!

the rest of thursday!

Well Peeps, I'm pretty proud of myself:

The rest of thursday I worked out for an hour and a half (dance class) I was REALLY sweaty!

Then I got a ham sub sandwich and a bag of sunchips. I ate half the ham and half the bag for lunch, around 3:00...

then ate the other half and chips before rehearsal around 5:50pm..I know this doesn't seem like much time in between-but it really helped me not to be hungry later in the night

8:00pm-Christine brought in cookies for her b-day-I only had half of a chocolate chip cookie!! YAY! I'm so proud of myself, because usually I would eat like 2 or 3.

This morning:
9:10am-eggs with salsa and hot sauce, a mini cran muffin (I put two on my plate but only had one of them! YAY), half a glass of soy milk, and half a grapefruit.

I plan on working out today too...not sure when-but I do plan on it. :)

love
~Arwen

p.s. I will weigh myself tomorrow morning... (eek!)

yesturday and this morning

I forgot to fill in my journal yesturday-mainly because I did pretty well. But I realized that I need to write down.

Ysetruday:
7:30am- scrambled eggs, salsa inside small tortilla, half a grapefruit, vanilla soymilk.

3:00pm--a turkey wrap with pepper jack cheese, a handful of pretzals

10:00pm--4 wheat thins

So things I need to improve on--i had LARGE GAPS in between times I was eating...mainly because of my schedule-but that's now good because then when you do get a chance to eat-you might eat too much...

I didn't workout today-we did have a pretty hard dance rehearsal-and I'm only counting that because I didn't eat very much later in the day.

My PIG OUT time is DEFNINITlY mid-afternoon. I know that for sure-that's the time of day I want to eat the most.

TODAY so far:

keeping in mind the mindful eating:
8:00am scrambled eggs with salsa of course (I don't think I will Ever get sick of eating this lol), piece of whole wheat toast (which I only ate 3/4 of.), quarter of a grapfruit, half a glass of milk, a couple bite of jello with straw berries in it.

11:50am-a handful of kashi cereal-I don't have time to eat before dance-but I know if I eat after dance I'll eat too much-so I'm eating just a little bit now.

a little shabby-but i made up for it

hey!

i worked out yesterday and today.

yesterday:
7:30am-a vitamin water and a kashi granola bar

1:00-a tofu fajita and oatmeal choco chip cookie

10:15pm-a turkey wrap with veggies, cheese and fat free ranch dresssing

(So the bad part on this day was not eating between 1 and 10, because if I had, then I wouldn't have eaten so late)

TODAY:

breakfast:
8:25am-an orange and some wheat thins

12:00 a beef wrap (it wasn't very big at all), some pasta salad, and raw veggies with vinegar and pepper, and of COURSE: an ice cream cone!

afternoon: okay this gets a little fuzzy--but sometimes during the afternoon i ate TWO!! oatmeal cream pies--the BIG ones, that are like 370 cals EACH!, some wheat thins and pretzals.

then I said that I wouldn't eat for the rest of the night to counter my bad afternoon, and I haven't eaten anything...so yay. and my tummy is hungry right about now-but I told it "NO!" you're done eating for the day.

I'm weighing myself tomorrow morning...this morning i was at 149.6 (I cannot believe that I'm in the 150's, that is just crazy-it makes me feel really fat:
On saturday I was hanging out with Becca and some of our guy friends, and they brought out a scale-(the reason escapes me at the moment)-and all weighed themselves, they were all 150, 155, 160!! Then Becca weighed herself-141, and I was like-I already know I weight, 150... WAH WAH!!

EWW! How sucky is that?

I gotta get skinnier-plus I kinda like this guy-and he's my thinspiration as my sis would say.

Love you all (really, no one reads this probably but)!! I'm trying my best-and I just got some good tips and a new motivation.

~Arwen

food today:

yuck.

breakfast:8:00-granola bar, banana, marble jack cheese stick

lunch: 12:00 - grilled turkey and cheese sandwich, iceburg lettuce salad w/ carrots, peas, and fat free ranch and a SMALL cone of soft serve.

3:00- pretzals, a stick of strign cheese, a banana

5:50: a bowl of progresso chicken noodle

11:00-A personal pizza. (WHY!! GOD! WHY did I have this!?!)

i'm going to bed, I can't bear to weight myself tonight.

~Arwen

goals for tomorrow

NO CAKE!!! (meaning I can have a small cone of soft serve- (It's not that bad for you) IF I have a healthy lunch.

Exercise: I will look for a chiro and give my full effort in dance class.