an update on a blah day

So I weighed myself today-this morning I was like 139.5. Now, after eating the weird combinations of awful foods-which I will embarassingly share with you, I am 141.6. Blah!! I've been drinking tons of water since the weather is so hot. I went for a 25 min bike ride. I plan on doing some jumping jacks and pushups and abs yet too. So hopefully that will help with the awful I ate this morning. I'm also worried cause I told Becca I'd visit her at work today-sit in her section and try to get my neighbors to go with. Unfortunately, I should have put that in the back of my mind whilst I crammed: the leftovers from last night's pasta and veggies I made, some organice grapenuts with a banana in it (UM! Yeah-I don't think I like them.) Then I ate a hershy's bar (?!?!?!?), some pretzals and mustard, and a piece of frozen cake with some chocolate ice cream. (?!?!?!?!!?). Serioulsly! Can you say binge? It is true that planned out meals are the key to losing weight-because then you don't end up eating like random crap!

And the worst part is: The restaurant is going to have greasy crappy food, maybe I'll order a soup. Man! I really wasted my food intake for the day-cuz I really wanted to make a fresh salad with my greens before they go bad! Now I probably shouldn't eat anything more.

YET! Natalie-one of my roomie'ss-just got back from Peru, so my other roomie Laura baked her a cake!! TEMPTATION is EVERYWHERE! Ugg! I know I must NOT have a piece of that cake. I need to stay on track.especially after a horrible morning.

I'm going to try not to eat any candy at work tomorrow. It's such a tough shift though, but it's right between lunch and dinner, so therefore I should convince myself I don't need to munch on anything out of boredom or such. Well, hmm. I think that's about it.

I don't know how to salvage this horrible day, but I'll try. I have to rescue the skinny me from the layers of fat it is trapped in!!

love,
Arwen

a recap on yesturday and so far today

Hey folks!!

Last night was tough, I had grapenuts and cottage cheese a little after dinner. And Oh my goodness! I wanted Icecream sooo bad. But I didn't have any. However I ate a lot of peppermint candies yesturday so I'm sure that wasn't good. Today I had a granola bar and a yogurt for breakfast: 300 calories. I can't imagine those diets where people have liike 200cal in one day and that's it! I know cutting calories is important in losing weight-but not that much I don't think.
Then after church I had one cookie-oatmeal raisin. I'm proud of myself for juist eating one cookie instead of like 3. Then for a snack/lunch? I had cottage cheese with grapenuts. I was planning on making a salad for lunch, but I'm kind of full from the grapenuts, and I'm just wondering if I should run with that and not havea salad until dinner time. I haven't decided yet...

Hmm! The kay to losing weight, I read in a book, is to plan your meals ahead of time. Well I didn't plan the grapenuts-so that's bad.

Well I'll follow up later.

~Arwen

today today

Soooo I LOVE days when I work. (That's sarcastic!) I had a little bit of frozen pizza and a granola bar for breakfast, a panini for lunch, and a BIG salad and a little more frozen pizza. and some peppermint candies for dinner.


Probably not the BEST day-but ya know...

the rest of the day

So I worked out today-biked to the YMCA, did 30min of running and then some weights and abs and stretching. Then biked home.

I was planning on making a nice salad for dinner-cuz I just got some fresh stuff at the farmers market-however, when I got home everyone informed me they were going to noodles. Well I couldn't be a party ppoper cuz Natalie is leaving for Peru tomorrow (Natalie is one of my roomies). So anyway, I got the thai coconut curry soup-which is mostly water. Then I hada big glass of water, and I put a lot of spicy on my soup.

Afterwards however, the group deicided to go to Coldstone. Thanks to being poor, I said I couldn't get any. I did however have a couple bites of other people's icecream. You know what! I HATE sugar, because it just makes you hungrier and hungrier, like the first thing I thought when I got home was hmmm I'm hungry. But I wasn't really!! I'm going to go brush my teeth, and I am not going to have anymore food tonight! Nothing. NOTHING!!


Talk to you in the morning!!


love,
Arwen

BMI calculations

I'm at 26.5-OVERWEIGHT CATAGORY!! BAH!

to be 18.5 BMI, I need to weight 101lbs! If I weight 11olbs I'll be at 20BMI. If I weight 136lbs, I'll be at the max BMI under the normal weight catagory...

so 136 is the highest in the normal catagory, and 101 is the lowest!! that's a 35lb difference! So man I must be sooo overweight. I feel like such a fatty!

fat fat fat me!!!

So Natalie Bought a scale-because she is going to Peru, so of course I weighed myself. I'm 144.8 lbs!!! YUCK!! I'm so overwieght for my height! I need to lose 35 lbs!!! It seems almost impossible. YOu know I think sometimes-"I really don't look too fat" But I must! 35+ lbs ovreweight is just insane.

Today for breakfast I had a bowl of cinamon frosted mini wheats and milk. Then at work I ate some cheese and about 1/2 of a cheese and avacado pannini, and then I just had a grape freeze pop.

I'm going to go to the YMCA today. I'm going to clean my room today. I'm going to lose 2lbs by next friday. Still though, honestly, 142.8 sound just as yucky! This is going to take forever and a day!! I cannot believe I'm only 5'2" and on top of that- I can't believe I have the nerve to wear a bikini in Public!!

Bah!! I'm sorry worried! But honestly, this is helping me already, when I was eating the food at work I though, "I'm going to have to write about this in my food blog."

So hey! I think I'm off to a good start. But looking back, It sure does feel like I"m going no where! I will never never never let myself weigh more than I do today!! I will weight myself in the morning. And everyday I can-(If Natalie keeps the scale around. :))

ciao! I'll report back later to tell you what I eat for dinner. I will eat dinner at 5:30-no later. If I get hungry later that night, I will not eat!

a LONG way to go and stuck in the mudd

I am an addict, I really am. I am psycho!! I have such a case that I am so surprised I do not weight a million and five pounds! I gave my scale to good will at the end of the school year-thinking maybe if I didn't focus so much on my weight, it might help me lose it??!?!? What was I thinking.

I need to focus on why the heck I eat so much! Or why I'm never satisfied after I eat, and who is telking me I'm supposed to be satisfied afet I eat? The stupid comercials and crap. I just want to eat and eat and eat somemore!! Good food, fruity, salty, cold, moist, sweet, chocolately, crunchy, spicy food! Then afterwards I feel my globby stomach and mushy thighs, and wish that I felt comfortable in my body. Oh I wish I felt comfortable in my body. Chic and tiny and sexy and tight and strong and comfortable!!

I think I really need to start blogging again, it really helped me be more aware and in control of the crap I'm letting into my body...

well my roomie is in bed. I'll srite more tomorrow after eating a really healthily!!

and by sept 1 I'm going to be 4 inches thinner around my waiste! and have a nice set of abs, sey arms and a tight butt!!

~Arwen